Buffy

When will this stop hurting so much!??!!!
So in July of 1995 while I was in Florida and shortly after my daughter was stillborn my ex-husband got a cat. At first I was afraid of her- she tried to climb the inside of my nightgown and since that never worked out the way she planned she would just end up scratching me. We grew to love each other though. I had her through everything. Through the whole thing at Mcchord when C wanted out of our relationship. We had her babysat while we lived in the UK by various relatives and then by a very dear friend of mine in MD. We got other cats in England but they just were not Buffy. When we came back stateside we stopped there and got her before continuing on to CA. When I left and moved up her with the girls she came with me. She was there for me to cuddle when I was single (both times lol) before I met DH.
So Thursday evening when I got home she was on the floor of the living room and I leaned over and scratched her head. Then DH went out to go to work and she went out as well. I never saw her again. I posted flyers last night on our big community mailbox and this morning a neighbor called and told me he saw her on the side of the road where she had been hit and she was dead. I haven't cried that hard in a VERY long time. Telling my kids was one of the hardest things I have done. I miss her so much already and wish she could just come home to me. I just want her to cuddle up with me on the blanket Mary made me (her favorite BTW) and kneed me to make me more comfortable for her. I have lost a very dear friend and I will miss her everyday.